Twenty-Twelve and Little Red Coats

TWENTY-TWELVE

So it’s a new year, and a new start each day.
Last year my goals changed drastically from “to-do’s” to “to-be’s”.
This year it’s a lot the same.
Not projects to complete and activities to check off but more on a personal level,
where it’s between me and God.

Goals are great, I fully agree.
It’s just that for so many years I got hung up on the goals instead of The Goal,
and I don’t want that to be a pattern of my life.

So I still have them in my head, they have not yet reached paper.
Some are personal, some pertain to my marriage and things I want to BE,
some are practical and relational as I interact with my little family,
some have to do with time management…

Several years ago I realized that not nearly all of my New Years Resolutions were happening,
and it was due largely to expecting other people to do things a particular way to enable their completion.
Enter frustration and conflict, because of expectations that should never have been placed on other people.
Expectations they were not even aware I had put upon them!

That is why I’m changing from To-Do to To-Be.
Some people may need to do the opposite, but this is what is right between God and me.

So much of life is like that, isn’t it?
Yes, there are very clear rights and wrongs in some things,
but in others, it has to be a communication between God and you.
What works for someone else won’t work for you.
What God leads you to do in a certain thing isn’t what He tells everyone else to do.
It’s simply an attitude of listening to Jesus Christ, of being content in relationship with Him,
to where I don’t feel threatened by all the other wonderful things other people are doing.

To be sensitive to His Spirit… to the quiet Voice that says,
“Okay, close the computer. Spend some time reading…”
Or “take _________ a meal, she’s exhausted today.”
“Your child needs some time with you, try a walk outside.”
“Write a note and drop it in the mailbox.”
“Take some time to prepare for your husband coming home, some makeup and perfume.”
Or sometimes it may mean, “Write that blog post…”

It can be so many different things, and I don’t know what it’ll mean for me each day.
I won’t live it perfectly, but by His Grace I want to live near Him, in Him, and He in me.
Drawing all security and all sense of belonging from Him, no where else.
I think this is a life-long learning, ,
of learning to walk with Jesus, hearing His voice, and obeying.

I’m excited about Twenty-Twelve!
For us it includes:
~ a sister wedding
~ a baby arriving
~ a second sister wedding
~ a brother-in-law wedding
[as the biggest things]

and other lovely things will be:
– a sister moving to the south because of her marriage [yay!!]
– snuggling and loving on Little Love when he/she arrives
– trips to the ocean
– My Faire Lady fun projects
– lots of extended family time
– the daily wonder of Jesus!

[ Little Red Coats while in Colorado]
[i bought the smallest coat on clearance at the children’s place for around $10 when zoe was just little,
and she wore it until her little arms poked out of the sleeves much too far. :)
THEN i found another size at a consignment shop for just a bit more than i paid for the first one,
and this winter they could wear matching ones! i was so thrilled.
dressing my kids is way too fun. especially when it’s cheap. :)]

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Be blessed by and filled with Jesus today!
~clarita

Of Princesses and Pink Cupcakes

 

The past few weeks since the girls have returned to good health [after the two-week illness bout over Christmas] have been so wonderful. These are the kinds of days I imagined when I thought about what being a mom would be like one day in the far future. :)

… happy, giggling children
… happy chattering
… occassional fights, but nothing to disturb the day too greatly

[The Dining Room mantel]

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However, I live in the real world like everyone else, so not every day is like that! [see previous post]

But the past few weeks Zoe has been over-the-top happy. As in, giggles after almost every sentence she says. At stuff that isn’t even remotely funny. Fits the perfect description of “chatterbox.” So sweet to her sister [well, except for when I’m on the phone catching up with friends I haven’t talked to in months; then, well…]. Just generally happy almost all the time. It really is quite amazing. Not that she wasn’t usually happy, but now she’s just gushy happy.

Olivia, on the other hand, is in rough waters with teething. Part of her sickness over Christmas, along with the flu, was getting all four eye teeth at once. Since finally cutting those, she’s still been sooo grumpy, and it dawned on me through a talking-with-a-seasoned-mom-moment that she is also cutting her 2-year molars early. Sooo, still working on better days with that poor child. At least now I have more sympathy. :(

[Anyway, that part was for my mom. :) It’s not like everyone else is interested in hearing about someone else’s teething child. But Nana? Yep. She’ll listen for hours. ♥]

Zoe has also been living in the imaginary world of being a Princess. This just thrills my heart, seeing the innocence, the core desires of a girl’s heart being voiced so unassumingly. “Mommy! Look at me! I’m a blue-ti-ful Princess!”

[She has a lisp, or a “listhp” :), but most of her words are pronounced correctly. But she always says, “blue-ti-ful.” And I think it’s so precious I’m not about to try to change it.]

There is no shame in voicing the question, “Do you like me, Mommy?” just to hear a reassuring YES along with a tight squeeze. Or in asking, “Am I blue-ti-ful?” to hear the pride in a parent’s voice in the YES, because parents generally think their child far exceeds normal standards of beauty, blinded-by-love though they may be. There is no shame in enjoying beauty, in being beauty. “Mommy, watch me dance!”

My children teach me so much about God. And about relationship with God. About going to God honestly with the questions I’m feeling. It’s not silly or ridiculous. That’s what relationship is about – honesty and being vulnerable with our hearts before God. Not pretending that everything is okay if it isn’t. Being honest if we need a hug today. Being real with God, like Zoe was yesterday morning, “I’m sorry I wasn’t being nice to you, Mommy…” I’m intertwining the various relationships here, but I hope you follow. No wonder Jesus told us to be like a little child…

So the combination of Princess-love and hearts and pink and Valentines’s Day called for some pictures. I don’t claim to be a good photographer, and sometimes I’m rather embaressed to put up my shots, but you know, this is our life; we’re normal, we’re not perfect, but we invite you as friends. Although I would love to take a real photography course sometime, just to learn more about it. Any good suggestions? [on one that wouldn’t break the bank account?] Some of you “real” photographers have given me tips here and there and I love when you guys do that.

These pictures were taken in evening light, and I just loved the softness about them.

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These following pictures were taken on a cloudy day, and I thought the lighting would be perfect. But just as we started taking pictures, the sun broke through the clouds VERY brightly and thus the harsh lighting. :( Re-doing wasn’t really an option, because, well, my girls aren’t really photogenic. :) It’s more like I run after them trying to snap a few pictures that hopefully will turn out. Olivia especially. She’ll probably wonder why I hardly have any pictures of her. And I’ll say, “Because you were always a blur, a whirlwind of running.”

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But if she is fascinated by Zoe, then we can get a few still shots. But definitely not posy-posy. Oh no.

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On my chalkboard in the dining room, which adjoins to the living room, I have written:

TODAY:
 – enjoy little things
 – smile at my children
 – choose to Trust

 

So because I want to make it a point to do fun little things with my children, and to meaningfully look into their precious little faces and smile into their eyes…

…and since Zoe is SO into pink [that was the first color she recognized, and it’s still her favorite today], and because this book is one of her favorites ever ever ever…

…we made pink cupcakes for Valentine’s Day. We had SO much fun! I felt like a little girl myself, and I don’t normally enjoy baking all that well.

I am not a baking genius, lest this picture fools you. My secret lies in the next picture.

Pillsbury Cake Mix, you are my new friend. You make baking so easy, and look so amazing. Baking right after breakfast was actually easy, due to these easy ingredients:

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Other than Zoe cracking an egg and it sliding down off the counter and running down the cabinets and making a puddle on the floor [“I can do it! I can do it!!” she had emphatically told me], and other than batter flying around the kitchen when she was mixing up the batter with the electric mixer, it was a grand success. She chattered like a magpie during the whole 2 hours, or however long we were baking. I hope she remembers times like this, because this day will go down in my memory as pure loveliness.

[Pajama-clad and morning-hair glory all three of us. I look like I was either 1) crying my eyes out the night before, or, 2) just woke up 3 minutes prior. Neither was the case.]

BUT – the point of this picture is the matching aprons! They were a gift from my sister Ervina, and I’m sure she has no idea how much we love wearing them together. And if I forget, Zoe will remind me. She loves it that much. And besides the fun we have wearing them, we can think about Auntie Ervina and how much we miss her… ♥

Zoe’s role as Assistant Gourmet Artist was taken seriously.

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This part of putting on the sprinkles delighted her little soul to no end. “Enjoy little things…”

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And of course, whenever there is baking, there are always eager tasters.

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We wrapped a couple of them up in little paper wrappers, inspired completely by Rachel. Never in a hundred years would’ve I thought of such a cute idea.

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I love white cake stands, but have none of my own. So, putting a plate on top of a white milk glass bowl creates the effect I’m looking for. At least, until it has to be moved. :)

Zoe was making all kinds of faces that morning for the camera. These are for my mom too. :)

And thus ends my rant on how FUN it is to have two little girls. :)
I would like to have 2 more, just like them, please. :) And then boys may start after that. But I LOVE having two little girls!

[And now I’ve used up all my picture allowance on xanga for the month. And it’s only the 15th. Premium suddenly looks appealing. So if you see me uploading strange amounts of pictures to facebook, it’s because I can copy and paste, thus the odd size picture assortment…]

And that’s the post Of Pink, Of Princesses, and Of Cupcakes.

-clarita